Hermit Evolution

I love people
I love their smiles, their laughs
Their differences create bright lights and new flavors in life

People are exhausting
Every dive into a conversation is an exercise in decreasing stamina
Tolerance is not built
I tried for decades now

Texting is a Godsend
Letters and emails preferred
I can talk to you when I want?!
Ignore you if I don’t??

Working from home now
My car was totaled
And I live hours from everyone

I found it


I can’t think with the voices in my head

The voices sound like they want me dead

I can’t act with this fear in my bones

This freezing terror won’t leave me alone

I can’t love with hate in my heart

I’m trying to forgive but I’ve had a rough start

I can’t really seem to do anything at all

Nothing to uplift when all I’ve done is fall